Adolescent touchy and solitary he have never known the casually or frivolity

Three small pages. In the story on the death of his father, "The fall of horse" - sign of destiny or not, the rider was called Philippe, which in Greek means "the one who loves the horse"-, Jérôme Garcin had just mentioned that of his twin brother. At the time when he turns fifty-three, he was able find the forces - and the words - to cope with the tragedy. Even if, in each of his birthdays, the same disorder the captures: "I have the impression that I am not alone." Happens to me even, without saying to those I love around me their affection to me surprised of your absence, pester against thy Lord delay, look to the entrance door, to watch you to imagine that you're going to help me to blow the candles - two what angry tornado would be, and what greater White-fronted Gale; two would be a valiant century.

Jérôme and Olivier did not six years. One evening in July, they asked their father to stop to go to see cows in a meadow. Crossing the road of a bond, Olivier was overthrown by a car whose driver took flight. It was never his trace. Jerome, who is Evita to go to the funeral of his brother, had to learn to live alone. With, first, this strange observation: all the toys they had had duplicate were returned to their State of single object. "I was distraught." I had to suddenly face life without my sister, moving know you me, beat me without my natural ally, play in the Court log - or the jacks! -without ever find your look and your support, only laugh, have only fear. Keep me right only, also.

In response, that would become, very young, editor-in-Chief of the "new literary", threw himself in reading. Adolescent touchy and solitary, he have never known the casually or frivolity. Older than his age, as pressed for time, living in a world of paper, it is with great writers, their claiming "conversation and protection": Jean Guitton, Claudel, Bergson and Teilhard Chardin, and above all, a man who played a key role in his life, Jacques Chessex, including Garcin gave the eulogy, a few months ago, on the shores of Lake Geneva.

This beautiful meditation on the absence and death is also a question on the twinning. On the guilt of the renew on the desire to a brother of substitution - here, Olivier Nora, companion of Noirmoutier vacations, today CEO Grasset and Fayard, Bartabas, which he did not breach a show and with which he had the privilege of gallop, a Sunday along the Grand Canal of Versailles.

Even if Garcin never had the temptation to - "too proud for me" - analysis, it deflects not. Recognizes to be forged Armor: "nothing let appear emotion that captures me, hide my storm and my storm, keep for me which weakens me." A the terms of the original drama, Garcin book here with great frankness and gives this text - which he is often questioned if he would publish or not-, the tone of the intimate confessions. Sometimes raising the veil of modesty, he questions his demon of writing, the need for campaign, his passion for riding. Marvels, especially, of happiness that brings his wife, actress Anne-Marie Philipe, and their three children, passionate to varying degrees of the equestrian thing. "Home, dead and living trot removed front.". Beautiful look.